In these times...

There are times I say yes

Other moments I say no

There are times I go

Other moments I stay

There are times I feel complete

Other times I feel empty

There are times I am confident

Other times I am not

There are times I forgive

Other moments I say "I'm sorry."

There are times when things go right

Other moments it all goes wrong

There are times I want to lead

Other moments I want to be led

There are times I feel scared, unwanted, dirty, sad, guilty, numb, helpless, small...

Yet in these moments I am reminded I am secure, wanted, clean, adored, joyful, free, hopeful, Alive...and worthy of the calling on my life...

"With this in mind, we constantly pray for you, that our God may count you worthy of his calling, and that by his power he may fulfill every good purpose of yours and every act prompted by your faith." - II Thessalonians 1:11

Ephesians 3:20

"Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us..."

This simple verse has became a motto in my life. We all dream, have desires, wants and wishes...many to come true, yet some to stay hidden. This verse gives me hope which builds into confidence. It then leads to passion, a goal and then watching how God unfolds His plan into my life. In a way that reaches beyond my expectations. Yes, sometimes that plan is not what I had in mind at all...but it turns out amazing none-the-less.

Like many...

I question.

I question His sovereignty, love and compassion.

I question why things happen the way they do and why things don't turn out the way I think they should...

I question where I am and where I am going...

I question the purpose I'm living out today.

When I question I find direction.

I find peace.

I find an answer.

I find an understanding.

I find Him.

I'm learning that no matter where I am in life...God is always doing exceedingly above my thoughts.